I’m finding it tricky to muster the commitment to prepare some paintings for sale on Bluethumb. I want to do this, but so far, I’ve not done it.
There is the pointer “Just do it” and see what happens. I like this idea (yet I’m still not doing it).
When I was working full time, being paid to do that job, I was dedicated and diligent, always doing my best regarding quality, accuracy, and efficiency. However, faced with applying these attributes to my own work (re: selling online), it’s rather flopsy-bunny.
Truth is, I’m ambivalent* about my own art output. Yes – in the heat of the painting process, there is passion, excitement, and experiment (mixed in with “boredom, doubt and discomfort” (to quote Adi Da). But – and ... why would anyone actually want to buy a painting from “me”?
*And I acknowledge that such ambivalence towards my paintings directly reflects my relationship with my “self”. So I’m here, blundering along, not knowing what my “true purpose is”, and not particularly liking the overall experience of this human experiment. I’m even wondering about the usefulness of “my art” in the context of millions (even billions) of my fellow human beings struggling to survive daily.
I even feel vastly more inspired by the artwork of others – yet there’s still the impulse to paint ... something.
I realised recently that I may NEVER be keen on my work, which freed me up a bit. So perhaps the “point” is not about liking my work but about doing it and continuing it with as much authenticity as possible till I can’t do it any longer.
And get the heck out the way, let the paintings have a life of their own, and see what happens.